Of Appraisal and Growth

Its that time of the year in the corporate world when you strive hard to prove that you are the best thing that has ever happened to the company. The time where you are in a rush to complete pending training's, brown bag sessions, white paper and blah blah blah.. The one's who were hardly seen at work suddenly seem to appear at the desk for long hours. There were even people ...u know cute guys.. that I haven't ever seen before..suddenly pop up from nowhere..... Ah! treat to the eyes....how I wish this period lasts ;-)

I look around and see eyeballs hanging out of panic-struck faces mechanically staring at their monitors lost in state of  trance oblivious of their surroundings. Seeing them I am reminded of the calm and composed standing yogis lost in a trance, emanating an aura of serenity. Given a choice I would prefer the latter state of trance to the former. Okies so back to where we were.. Ah yes... the appraisal time.

So there I was packing my bags all set to leave for the day when our dear Mr P (famously known as Blame Master)walks in with a long face.

Mr P : Hey, I see you've packed
Me    : Yeah, I see you haven't
Mr P : Ah! yah ...man am so screwed.. I really don't know what to do.. This appraisals am really gonna get screwed
Me   : Oh thats bad (with an Astonished expression!!!)  why wat happened.... you didn't do well last year??
Mr P : Ah! no not really... you know I do my things well... but the problem here is ...there are people called Career Counselors.. are you aware of it?
Me : Yeah of course I know (what?? you think I work for a different organization?)
Mr P : Well.. You know you are lucky. Your CC's, they  guide you and set the path for your career growth
Me : That's exactly what they are expected to do.
Mr P : Yeah but you know what?? Of all the people I ended up with a career counselor who never helped me.. All these days while others had their counselors shaping up their career I was struggling all alone not knowing what to do.
Me : But then you should've contacted him/her or maybe consulted our manager, he would've helped
Mr P : Not it doesn't work that way
Me : ( Huh! really??)
Mr P : Its all in the hands of the counselor and just because of that man, my growth is stunted. I am stuck here in the same place; While all the useless people grows without doing anything, I just get stuck for not having a proper counselor .....................  .................. ............................ ...................... ..................
Sigma... hey Sigma.... are you listening??
Me : Well to be frank, I really don't think a CC matters .. I mean really.. my CC has not bothered to get in touch with me ever.. neither has he acknowledged my pings each time I tried to contact him...
Mr P : OMG!!! Oh you poor girl... I really am worried for you now.. your career is doomed.. no matter what you do within the project, its not gonna do you any good.. how will you grow???
Me : Don't worry bout my growth pal,as I am growing and I will continue to grow ;-)
Mr P : Bye (With a puzzled expression)

I picked up my bag and walked towards the exit...

Of course I will grow.. with all that new recipes that I've been trying. All the weekend escapades with friends and impromptu lunches with BFF... I had to grow! He just doesn't get the point. Nobody gets the point! They ponder over things which are anyways not gonna improve. Why waste your today thinking about what happened in the past and whats going to happen in the future? Don't they ever realize that happiness is a choice. You either choose to be happy with what you have or you choose to be unhappy over that which would anyways not be yours.

Everybody needs a shower once in a while.

Everybody needs to shower every once in a while.

Now don't give me that puzzled expression. You must be wondering who doesn't shower, and who doesn't know that everybody needs to shower. Well, you'll know soon as to what I actually intend to talk about an entirely different form of shower here. Read on....

It feels great, to just stand under the shower after a tired day at work. Apart from washing away the dirt that is accumulated in your body as a result of the day's mayhem, it also removes the odor which results from the release of stress hormone and pheromones and the likes. The benefits of shower do not end there. There's something about a good long shower that gives you a desirable feeling. It eases relaxes you, soothes your tired body, rejuvenates you, leaving you feeling fresh and happy J

Just the same way, a shower once in a while is needed for a tired soul. For those of you who goes through a lot of emotional turmoil. Tears like showers, helps you rejuvenate yourselves. It removes the dirt of unwanted worries accumulated over the days. It washes away the blood and earth left behind by broken relationship. I agree It cannot heal a broken wound overnight, but it can dampen or maybe if I have to put it in the right words, it can help you diminish the scar and make it lighter each time u cry. It takes away the stench of wilting relationships and helps you start all over again. It relieves you if not forever but at least long enough to make you feel better by each passing moment.

You must always be careful not to overdo it. Just like how long showers leave your skin soggy and wrinkled, too much of crying also leaves you exhausted and tired and prone to chronic outbreaks.

Image courtesy http://renewmoonyoga.com/2013/01/27/shower/

So darlings cry less, shower once in a while and wash away those dirty emotions, shower on your own or grab someone for company. Lift yourselves up, laugh, watch the sky, go for a ride, have dollops of ice creams and loads of chocis!!

Cause we have just one life and its crazy and weird and funny and complicated with a lot of difficulties and mistakes and laughter and celebrations, separations and unions, losses and gains and we all know you can never come out of it alive. As where the sufferings end, that's where life ends.

Michael

Mia moved her hands over the blue pull over. That was the first ever gift that he got her, it was special and will always remain so. She heaved a sigh as she placed the empty mint jar back in her safe fondly remembering that evening at the park. At last, her heart felt lighter after all these years of walking around with the guilt of killing a heart so true.

Letting go, rather pushing off someone so loving, was a loss in itself, and she suffered for it. She had died from within, while she kept a straight face, refraining from indulging in any conversations that would make him realize it was the situations that led her to do what she did. Breaking his heart was never a thing she wanted to do, but she had to do exactly that to make him move on in life instead.

Mia felt the knot loosen from her chest. That notch of guilt fading away slowly. Michael didn't bother to tell her about his engagement even though they caught up over a small chat the very next day he got engaged, but thanks to the social network she got to know and Mia didn't bother to ask him why. She wished him a good future and ended the conversation there, if only should could tell him that… she's always missed him... Those late evening breaks at work, that Diwali celebration, those crazy dance practices... those midnight drives back from work, will always be fondly remembered by his good old POTATO.